Ah Ryn's Tag

1 ) At what age do you wish to marry?
Anytime I feel its correct.

2 ) If you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?
How are you? :D

3 ) If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
Kelvin - So he can do the hunting for food la, either that or he chops himself for food since he has alot to spare.
Aaron - Thus, i can still remember to call someone lame lolol and also he can swim in search of another island. He's a lifeguard btw
Su Yang- Err...kinda doubt having him along you see cause when he's hungry its a lil dangerous with 4 guys on a deserted island.

4 ) Where is the place you want to go the most and with whom?
A place with extremely beautiful scenery. New Zealand perhaps? with someone i don't mind spending alot of time with. Loved one perhaps.

5 ) If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
To know whats going on in your mind.

6 ) Do you believe you can survive without money?
Err..i'd like to know who can so i can learn. if Su Yang is counted a survivor then i think i can too.

7 ) What are you afraid to lose the most?
THE important ones closest to me.

8 ) If you win 1 million, what would you do?
Err..put it into the bank and i don't have to work anymore?

9 ) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Hard to answer lo..depends.

10 ) List out the good points of the person who tagged you.
HAHAHAHAHA this is the best part. O K i tink im done ad.. =)

11 ) What am i doing now?
Whatever.

12 ) Which type of person do you hate the most?
People that create a new nest prior to destroying their current one.

13 ) What is your ambition?
I just know it is to be rich.

14 ) What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
Don't get the question.

15 ) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Family, friends, money and ourself.

16 ) Are you a shopaholic or not?
So far not but i can be i guess.

17 ) What do you see when you look into a mirror?
The Great Me.

18 ) Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
Currently very diversified you see..Von, Yang..thats bout it lah lol

19 ) What is your desired age to lose ur virginity?
Whenever it is the CORRECT time.

20 ) What are you afraid of?
Reptiles..snakes..yea it gives me the creeps and and hate to admit but also afraid of failing..in all aspects.

Challenge or Dream

Every human faces challenges in life. Some tougher than others yet this is what keeps us awake and aware of what we know now. Without these challenges, we wouldn’t be who we are now. We wouldn’t be as tough we know we are. We wouldn’t be able to stand up as swiftly if we fall now. We wouldn’t dry our tears as quickly if we shed one now. Challenges bring upon motivation and determination upon ourselves to grow. And grow we did. But has the challenges ended? Certainly not. It bombards upon us as often as we take a leak in the toilet. Little do we know but we face challenges daily, small ones it may be. How bout the big ones? The ones which really sucks up the life of you. The ones which would take all your wits and every last drop of sweat to complete. These are the ones which has such a huge impact on ourselves that it changes the course of our life. Of course, we are unaware of such impacts because it is part of the challenge, to be unaware of such changes. Let’s take it to a simpler level. We, as humans have to face difficulties which have landed right at our feet. It may range from education to family problems. Some may find these challenges a bitch and is a freaking nuisance but some others, may find it…challenging.. or perhaps, a i-have-to-win kind of situation.

I’m going to relate this to problems of a relationship. Challenge, the relation, the person, the outcome. In a situation where love becomes the challenge, a thought if the relation works out comes into place. There are those that take such situations as challenges. They regard the pursuit as a challenge thus they put their all into that wild pursuit. It may seem like a ‘I want’ at the moment but truth be told its actually a ‘I must’ deep inside. These are the people who, instinctively take things for granted. These are those who have the desire to own but loses such desire when owns. These are the people that have no sense of appreciation of hard work. These are the people who for some reason find satisfaction just by knowing “I won”. Put these group of people together with those who really put their heart into whatever they do and later APPRECIATE the effort, would be a real torture to the latter. To put things easier, its an extreme selfish act to do so. Just imagine yourself being the trophy, WHICH is later thrown away. It sucks pretty bad. Next, imagine yourself being the one throwing. It should suck extremely bad if you know exactly what you’re doing. You’re tearing your completed answer sheet at the end of an examination. A dumb and reckless act. To set academic results as challenges, sports or games as challenges, would be alright. In fact, it would be good cause it drives the sense of determination. But to put someone you like or in some cases, love, as the challenge is THAT much absurd.

Moving on to dreams. Speaking of dreams, we instantly imagine our goals and our wants. Be rich, be happy, be with our family or to be at the top of the world. Everyone has their own dream. Stuff that they wish they have or wish they would have. Such is dreams of every human. Every part of a man which says the “ I want” is a dream partially. Well, then it goes on to the part where we say, “a dream will forever be a dream if you don’t make it happen”. This, I undoubtedly agree. Those who dream but only lay back taking neither initiatives nor actions to achieve such dreams will forever be a dreamer. Those who take that extra step, who do that extra much, would possibly not become dreamers anymore, but achievers. To those who have taken that extra step, my greatest respects. To those who have yet to take that extra step, I strongly recommend doing it the moment you are able to. Comicly, a light bulb appearing beside my mind shows me that the song dedicated to such people would be “If Tomorrow Never Comes by Ronan Keating”.

Listen to this song, and take note of the last sentence of the song. Back onto the topic, I, for instance, have my dreams. I have taken few steps though not all to achieve such dreams but I positively I feel, at least I did so. Thus, I relate dreams once again to issues such as relationships. Take a time off reading my post thus far, take a minute or two and ask yourself “What is my dream in a relationship?”

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Done? What do you think of your answer? Had hesitations answering yourself? Whatever your dreams are, are you any step closer to it? If yes, I’ll say “great success!” if it’s a no, I’ll say “don’t worry, it’s never too late”. In a relationship, happiness might be the dream, love might be it, the person whom you love may be the dream as well. To say that someone is our dream is to say that person is at the end of my journey in heaven, that person is the achievement of our life. To set such a dream would be equivalent to making a statement of commitment. To step upon such commitment is not a shame but pride to do so. Walk upon it proudly.

Having said about challenges and dreams, I guess it all comes back to me now.

To fight or to chase

To compete for or to run after

To be victorious or to be successful

To be rewarded or to achieve

These have been running in circles in my mind for the past weeks. It has been a question yet a burden to me even up ‘til now. Thoughts put into it, no outcome satisfies me nor initiates any action. I’ve been wondering this and in fact I have been asking myself this question dozens of times,

“Am I going for the challenge? Or am I pursuing my dream?”

To be honest, I really do not know the answer to that. All I know is, I am tempted by such a challenge. I might possibly be up for it only for the challenge. And if that is true, I’d hate myself for it. I’d hate myself for being someone who likes challenges.

A friend of mine once said to me “All you ever care is about yourself”. No matter how I look at it, that sentence sips deeply into me which then only do I realise how selfish I am. Despite the things I do, it doesn’t show much because I’m still selfish in a way. If I am really taking this as just a challenge, I’m being a selfish fool. I will hate myself for the rest of my life for such a trophy is not for me to throw. I don’t want to.

I’ll cherish it for life knowing how to appreciate things that comes only once in a lifetime. I’ll care for it like it’s my last dollar. This is my word and I shall keep it. A dream to pursuit after is what I hope it is. For a want, would be better than a must. In this pursuit, if it is, I’ve taken my steps in fear of not being able to do so again. I have done things I never imagined myself being able to. But as a friend told me “If you are going for the inequitable, you need to be strong first to handle it”. This is because it will most likely have a big impact on yourself. It’s true that guys look all tough and cold on the outside, but actually guys are emotional freaks. They take small matters into account. They tend to think too much which later on causes themselves to have more emotional problems. Guys do have their soft spot at times, they are not always as cold as they seem. It is true that in order to achieve something we want especially when it’s a unilateral want, it requires more of the mind than the heart. If we let the heart do the thinking all of the time, we will most likely end up in another state of depression. We must allow our mind to make the decisions and actions if we want to make this pursuit an easier one. Most of us think using our hearts under certain emotional circumstances which causes most people to think of weird methods to release our stress or sadness.

Lastly, to Yang, ‘trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met’. This I tell you in hopes you know what I’m trying to do. I know you have been trying to get me to stop all this while already but I guess, I’m just too dumb cause I just don’t plan to stop. A challenge or a dream is for me to find out and ‘til I do, I guess I just can’t stop even if I want to.

Im being positive

Its been awhile, since the last time i felt so happy.
Its beyond description now. After so long, finally..happiness beyond happy.
And the main reason is, honestly i don't know either. It just came, again. Sometimes i really wonder why..how come i am always feeling this happy at the times i least expect it. Really, some things just happens at the weirdest moments that make you feel like you're dreaming. When it happens, obviously you feel like your floating. I know happiness like this doesn't last long, but at the moment, its really sips into your soul and whatever happens around you, it seems so positive, seems like another of those 'omg really?' kinda situations. Well, i wonder when will this happiness go away. No clue, time is a bitch. It can drag or drop instantly. I'll go happify myself now.